Enough about insecurity. Today is about bravery. Can someone please send me some? I have a problem.
I’m really struggling about sharing my story. Yesterday I said I had peace about it. Today not so much. I sent my chapter back to the editor with sentences and entire paragraphs crossed out. I’m not sure I want to do this anymore. I’m not sure why I am so afraid. I need to think about the reason I agreed to do this in the first place.
Okay, I’m thinking…thinking…still thinking…
Don’t mind me while I talk to myself. I’ve been letting her get in the way again. I’ve forgotten who my story is for and what this is all about. I’ve become too concerned with what others might think—particularly those who know me, who might read it and not understand.
I’ve been focusing on the wrong audience in my mind.
Okay, so who is the intended audience? Teen moms. Why do you want to share your story with them? I want them to know they are not alone. And? And that they are loved by God. And? I want them to accept the grace God has for them. Why? Because it has brought healing in my life. What else? I want them to know the goodness of God. Because? It’s changed my life. Well, then. Well, then. I’m glad we had this conversation. Thanks. Not a problem.
EDIT: I hope you can learn from my journey. Don’t second guess that path you have been placed on, especially when you know you were placed there by God. When we care too much about what others think, it gets in the way of our true calling. It is also a reminder of what lies underneath-anxiety, fear of rejection and lack of trust. If your natural tendency leans toward pleasing others, give it to God. He will walk you through it.
This is Day 29 of a 31-day series on writing naked. You can find the series in its entirety HERE.
This does not involve the removal of actual clothing. So please! keep them on!